catch up time

Wow.  Summer is flying by!  It's already the end of June...well almost.  And a week from today Aunt Mari and Nate will be here.  And Heather!!!  I haven't seen Heather since the middle of March (Dan's wedding).  And now I get to see her for Steph's wedding!  The bad news is, who knows the next time we get to see her. It surely better be before the next wedding (since I'll be the only unmarried one left).  Too bad she's not really within driving distance.  It'd be fun to go back east and visit...but I don't know if I see that happening either.  Stupid fund-sucking school.

I haven't done anything too exciting this summer.  I mainly just work...BUT I love the people I work with, so that's a bonus.  We have so many amazing people this summer.  The list of people I love is long and the list for people I dislike is relatively short...okay it's practically non-existent.  And then there are the people that just fall somewhere in between the two.

And maybe I'm just conceited, but I like it whenever I work around Chelsie and Alexis because they always tell me how adorable I look.  Plus, I like all the other random compliments.  I love my bird necklace...and apparently a bunch of other people do too.  Oh.  And I love when some of the aa/cashiers tell me I'm one of their favorites.  It makes me laugh because I know they're sucking up haha, but I'm sure for at least a few it's the truth :)

And sometimes we like to party at work.  Like the beach bash.  We had a bunch of people there from our departments which made it fun.  Otherwise it would've been lame.  Huge dance party + random volleyball game + the tube slide + cool people = awesome

And I really like all the supervisors this year.  We make a pretty rockin' team.  Last year...not so much.  And maybe part of last year was that I was the only new super (until they promoted two more mid-season) and felt like I just didn't fit in really.  But that's not the case this year...which is good.

Sometimes Ferris wheels are pretty :)

And sometimes, I get home from work, and finally wander into my room and find a present on my bed.

I was looking through the Kohls ad and said I wanted a waffle maker and that I should remember to go get it since it was only twenty bucks.  Well...I came home from work...and it appeared like magic.  Except the magic is my mom's awesomeness.  Plus she got me paper with a K.  I always end up making random lists of stuff...so that'll be useful.

Oh and remember Spencer?  He has flowers.  And is producing babies.  So maybe someday I'll figure out how to plant them.

Sorry...my kitchen is dark.  But you can see a flower.  And next to the flower is a spiderette.

I'm probably lame...but I like my spider plant.  Deal with it.

Part of me is ready for it to be the end of August and for school to start.  Well maybe not school, but at least be in Logan.  But, part of me is content with how things are now.  Both Logan and Bountiful have their pros and cons.  Most of it involves people.  It takes a lot less effort in Logan to make plans to hang out.  Or maybe summer is just crazy?

Oh and I've decided the justice/legal system (whatever it is...) is slow.  But that's America for you.

Oh and it's firework season!  I enjoyed a mini-show from my living room last night (yay for neighbors with illegal fireworks).  And on Friday I have more to go to!  Who knows if I'll get to go to any others besides those this year...but if not, I guess I can be content with that.

Oh and I hate when the power goes out, leaving me with an 85 degree house.  At least hiding in the basement was probably 10-15 degrees cooler :)  But...I love having AC.  

And I hate my wireless not working.  It's kinda inconvenient...oh well.  If those are the only things I have to complain about right now, life must be good.

decisions

Each day...each moment...everyone has the choice of how they let things affect them.  These things may be the actions of others, your own thoughts, etc.

I could be sad today because it's been one year since Oscar died.  I was away on my high school choir trip and didn't find out until I came home.  I'm glad my parents were smart enough to threaten my siblings not to say anything because it really would have wrecked my vacation.

I could be irritated with everyone who keeps staring at me when I'm in public.  Some have even pointed.  Yes, I'm aware I have a black eye.  How could I not be?  I felt it.  I wish I could share the story right here, right now, but I'm not sure if I can haha.  But it's a good one.  And maybe, once everything is all wrapped up, I'll share.  Or you can ask me if you're impatient :)

Or I could be happy.  I made a fun craft with Eryka yesterday.  We did these monograms.  We bought a letter from Michaels and painted and mod podged them.  I'm really quite pleased with mine...and plan on making a few more.

And be happy that I have awesome friends who like to keep me entertained.  There's Angie who lets me whine and complain to her about all of what's going on.  Plus she bought me a dinosaur.  And takes me to movies for free.  And then there are Kylee, Janie, and Sarah.  We like to dork around.  And play games {I learned last night that I am pretty awesome at Family Feud but suck at Sequence} and play the wii.  And watch movies.

I like to focus on the happy aspects.  Oscar was old and it was his time to go.  And maybe it was better that I was gone when it actually happened.  And I should be happy that my black eye is starting to fade...{kind of}.  And be happy about a few other things related to the story.  And be happy about finding something crafty I like.  And is easy.  And happy I have awesome friends.  Oh and parents.  They're pretty awesome and do lots of things for me.  And are supportive and caring and all those things parents are supposed to be.  Oh.  And I should be happy that I got my giveaway stuff I won from Cody at  yeah, that's macho and tough today.  Yay! :)

sometimes....and....normally....but......

sometimes....i lay in bed for over two hours trying to sleep, but can't
sometimes....that time gives me lots of time to think about things
but....i don't appreciate thinking that late when i really want to be sleeping because i have to be to work early
sometime....i don't say no
so....instead of working at noon tomorrow i work at eight
normally....that wouldn't be a big deal, except i'm going to the midnight premiere of pirates.
and....i'm already feeling super tired.
and....it's only ten thirty.
and....caffeine's not really making a difference.
and....i'm pretty sure i'm going to fall asleep during the movie.
but....i'm okay with that i guess.  it's the fourth movie.  it won't be that spectacular, will it?
confession...i'm going more for the people than the movie.
so...i'm hoping that i'll be able to survive through work...and then i can come crash at home.

other random thoughts...
sometimes....there are clothes i love and want to keep...but can see they're tired and worn out...so i decide to get rid of them.  i wish i had bought back ups haha.
normally....i like the rain...
but....i'm tired of it now. can i have sunshine for a few days?
sometimes....i don't feel like using capital letters.
sometimes....i wish i had a hobby. but i don't know what to do.
sometimes....i don't really feel like cleaning my room...which would actually be pretty simple
and....maybe i should just choose one dvd player. i have three stacked on top of my tv right now...
but...really i need two. since one still has a working vcr.  who watches vhs movies still? me...sometimes

see? three....

sometimes...i have random dreams.  involving random people.
sometimes...me and sarah decide we'll attend the singles ward instead of our "home" ward.
sometime...you find pictures that your nieces draw for you.  this picture includes cars. that are talking. and have faces. including teeth :)
sometimes....you go over to dan and eryka's and watch the office...and actually laugh

and sometimes....it's probably just time to go.
sarah should be picking me up any minute.
wish me luck in staying awake in all my endeavors.....

life minus college

Nothing too exciting has been going on lately in this neck of the woods.
Life has consisted of:

• Unpacking.  This is practically done.  But I still have stuff that needs to be taken up to my grandma and grandpa since they're being my own personal storage unit for the next 3 months.  And I have clothes that need to be hung up.  But when don't I?
• Working.  Hours are starting to pick up.  And soon things will be going full swing.  
• I started a post about people watching at work....but I changed my mind.  At least for tonight.  However, depending on the day, you may see some interesting characters there...
• Starting next week I get trained in an area I have never worked in before...but everyone else on my level knows how to do it.  I'm sure I'll be able to learn it quickly and do fine...I just hate the process.
• Sleeping.  I've been getting a pretty decent amount of hours of sleep lately.  Maybe it's making up for the last week days/weeks of school where I hardly got any sleep.  Especially the last few days of school...they were brutal to me.  But now I've been getting a lot of sleep {sometimes even 10-11 hours...too bad that won't last}
• Weddings.  Well...kinda.  I went to an open house tonight for a friend I went to high school with.  It's crazy to think people I went to high school with are already getting married.  I know of some who are already married....and even more who will be married by the end of the summer.  And then my house has had some sort of wedding talk constantly for the last year+.  Except every few months the couple changes.  But after July it'll be done for a long time.  And by "long time" I mean loooooooong time.  If I remember correctly, at our Mutual (YM/YW) dinner we had last year for the graduating seniors I said I wouldn't get married until I was 78.  Or maybe it was 87.  Either way I still have quite a while.
• Friends.  Or maybe movies.
• One night Kylee, Janie, and I went and saw Prom.  I thought it was decent.  As long as you didn't take it seriously.  After all, it was Disney.  Disney movies are meant to be laughed at.  They're always cheesy and unrealistic haha.
• Then another night Angie and I went to see Something Borrowed.  I had mixed feelings about that movie.  I thought it was cute.  But at the same time I wasn't necessarily okay with the message it was sending.  Call me old fashioned, but I think someone should break it off with their fiance if they decide they want to pursue a relationship with someone else....
• And after that movie I headed up to Kylee's house for a sleepover with Kylee, Janie, and Sarah.  We played Just Dance 2 and Mario Kart on the Wii.  They were both pretty fun {and involved a lot of yelling at the tv...}...and somewhat made me regret selling my Wii...but not enough to go buy a new one.  And then we headed off to bed...all four of us in one giant bed...but then we woke up and there were three.  Kylee made us cinnamon rolls for breakfast...and I wish I could have stayed longer to play with everyone and have fun...but work was calling my name unfortunately.
• I got a dinosaur in the mail.  Yep.  A dinosaur!  That's what I get for having an awesome friend named Angie.
• TV.  Okay yes this is a lame way to spend my time.  And really I haven't spent too much on it.  But I caught up with the Office again tonight.  And even though it's not as good as other seasons, I just can't let myself stop watching it.  And I watched Say Yes to the Dress tonight too.  Some dresses are really pretty...but other times I'm baffled at why people would spend thousands on hideous dresses.

Yep.  Life is pretty quiet.  Not uneventful...but lacking major events I guess.  But I'm just dandy with that.

mother's day

me and my mom at heather's wedding

Mom.  Mama Llama.  Or when you're not listening, Susan....SUSAN! :)

You are pretty dang awesome.  Really.  I don't think I could ask for a better mom.

You were always supportive of whatever I chose to do, yet you always let me make my own decisions.

You were always there in times of success and times of failure.

You are a loving mother, daughter, and wife {and aunt, friend, sister, neighbor, coworker, grandma and more}

You are patient, kind, and thoughtful.

I admit, it was pretty fun/funny to watch you learn how to use technology.  I remember when you refused to learn how to text and had to ask me questions every once in a while on how to use the computer.  I haven't had questions from you in a long time and you taught yourself how to text to keep in touch with your kids.

I love your ability to create.  You make crafty things.  You have my whole life.  Although the hobbies have changed over the years, you continue to use your creativity.  Maybe somewhere I inherited an ounce of your craftiness and creativity....it'll just take finding it.

I like that you listen to my ramblings about nothing.

I like that you decided to have 4 kids....because if you didn't...well you wouldn't have me!

I like that you have faith you can do things, even when you feel like you can't {gospel doctrine...I know I couldn't do it!}

I love that with all the craziness life has thrown at you, you roll with the punches.  

Even other people think you're pretty amazing.  It's not just me.  Like at Joy Luck.  I got a gift certificate for you and the owner filled out another one to give to you from him because "you are so wonderful."

Yep.  I agree.  You are wonderful.

I love you.  I couldn't ask for a better Mom.

Love, your favorite {youngest} daughter.

me and my parents in San Francisco